Forgetting

Today, I will be remembering, along with most of America, where I was 11 years ago.

I will also be forgetting.

I will forget with everything in me, as hard and strongly as I can.  I will forget that days like 9/11/01 happen.  I will forget that it could happen again.  

I must forget.  Because if I remember, if I dwell, I will lose it.  If I focus on the fact that, were another day like that day to come, were it to happen again, my Love would be involved.  The one who promised me forever might meet his "ever".  That slays me.

So remember, if you can.  Forget, if you must.  But feel, whatever you do.

Crying jags are my thing,
TFW

Lizard Tales

Guess who I found today?

I will name him Paulie

A lizard.  Or, more precisely, two lizards!  On my deck!

At least, I think they're different.  Could just be a color changer, I'm not sure.  Look into his eyes, tell me if he's the same.  

These lizards reminded me of two stories, which I will share with you now.  Be thinking of questions, because I'll call on the best listener after the post... or something :)

Remembrance

I would like to write a note about 9/11.  I would like to do something, make some small gesture to honor those who ran in when others were running out.  I find myself unable to even type these few sentences, however, without crying.

I don't know exactly what it is.  Heroics always cause pride and tears and gratefulness to well up inside of me, but this is a little bit more.  I think it's my personal connection to firefighters.  I know men who, although not yet tested, would have done the same as those who gave their lives to try and save others.  I'm married to one of them.  He may say that he doesn't know for sure, but I know him; he would.

So maybe that's the cause.  Perhaps its the knowledge that, in different times and circumstances, I could be missing my firefighter today as so many others are.  So as my remembrance, I can only sit here and let my tears be the evidence of my pride in Americans, my offering of gratitude, and my heartfelt condolences.  May those who lost their lives 10 years ago be remembered fondly, for their best moments.

Praying for our people, our country,

TFW